there are a lot of things to juggle on my plate right now. i guess this is what they say about keeping busy, thought i have not yet decided if i like this kinda busy. i am always tired these days. i honestly would not mind being tired at all, if only i could be tired doing something which i believe in. and i am not sure if i believe in most of the things that i am doing. and i would really like to be sure about more things.